Changing tide

...Yet another sad breakup poem

I am at the turning of the tide
Couldn't hold it if I tried
It all goes out together
My sustenance
And leaves me dry

Sitting on these crags
My company in the sun
Will You give me salt water to drink?
As I meet another age alone

No use, no use, chasing the tide
everything I've done
no longer hid
the change has come

a death of idolatry

you were my meditation day and night
your memory my daily food
the thought of you sustained me
that I would be with you one day was my strength

I desired you more than my necessary food
and I built to give you life more abundantly
how could I not see that your heart was far from me?
now I am altogether brought low and downcast
at your swift dismissal

a degree, a new home, a plan

castles made of sand

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nevertheless, this endless desert is what I drew
it was my contemplation true
not you,
you are an mirage,
this desert, with thirst and heat is real.
You, I cannot touch.
this desert sears my soul.

together

i can't protect you from what may come
but i can promise i'll love you through it
it's not something you can throw or
measure
or predict
or calculate
what will happen, what will become of this...

...all i know is that my eyes have seen the glory
of the coming of the Lord.

i have scenes in my mind
everyday
of what should, could be
and with my fear
i press towards
these impossible...

why won't you press with me
with our force combined
we'll press harder
and perhaps both make it to
that day
together

The Worth of a Man

of my visit to see him

But I went there.
And the worse thing that you could do to me was nothing.
And now the worse thing that you can do to me is nothing.
If it were a power play,
If you were but constrained,
If you had words or deed that you would render,
It is too late
2010 was the deciding year.

And please don't frown upon me now,
Or my actions
To preserve my peace.
There are plenty of girls to pursue and cheat.
Is this all I feared?

Yesterday a day was coming when we would be together.
Tomorrow that day will never come.
I hope you understand.
Your wealth and riches lied in your smile and helping hand.
Thousands later you'll understand.

The worth of a man.

Definitely

Definitely has been the cry of my heart
in this cold
in this darkest night

Do I see what I prayed for?
Yes
and in a measure I couldn't weigh
sure going to keep asking

I dumped the heights of my understanding
Education and degrees, like Paul,
I've abandoned

Everything that exalts itself against the knowledge of Christ
Landmark and Kern, Wellman twice.
I gave it up and went steady on
believing in what sight said was completely wrong.

And He gave me WISDOM.
Capital W-I-S and D.
For His kingdom that established above money.

I'm definitely decided on what this life will mean.
I'm not going home empty without trust or keep.
I'm leaning on The Captain of heaven's armies.
I'm spreading The Message come death or God's Peace.