The Worth of a Man

of my visit to see him

But I went there.
And the worse thing that you could do to me was nothing.
And now the worse thing that you can do to me is nothing.
If it were a power play,
If you were but constrained,
If you had words or deed that you would render,
It is too late
2010 was the deciding year.

And please don't frown upon me now,
Or my actions
To preserve my peace.
There are plenty of girls to pursue and cheat.
Is this all I feared?

Yesterday a day was coming when we would be together.
Tomorrow that day will never come.
I hope you understand.
Your wealth and riches lied in your smile and helping hand.
Thousands later you'll understand.

The worth of a man.

Bloodrunner

John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.



Didn't know that when I let you in it would be a constant bleed
Love is felt here, and love can kill
especially when the blade enters and splits open...
7 months set up for a spill

penetrated deep

Don't press it 'gainst a tree
Life was so carefree before I was hunted
For sport, not meat
For game, not heat

Can't get far, bleeding love.
Why do I believe you?

(Meaning: lovers lie and it rips your heart out to know you were used. At this point, I am in a cycle of receiving excuses and forgiving and forgiving, when I wish I had just gotten away.)

in hand

Fearless with steel in her hand--
with steel in her eye she searched him.
What she wrote, no mystery, not cold,
No intentions to cut,
but truth severed their hopes.

Bleeding Truth!

Now castles and happily ever after,
do seem like fairy tales.
She wrote it all;
she bled it all out on the pages--
beauty, life, truth.

at once consumed

And who wouldn't be moved?
She stopped reading him,
She rinsed her soul with tears.
She took her sword and retired it
for the years of fighting now meant nothing.

The words were not meant to kill
their hopes
But with every lie there is already risen Truth.
Truth has already bled for this day.
He won't have to.
Though the pain is no illusion,
and though love remains a mystery,
with pain in love she holds the sword to her heart.